Hope

Hope is saying something about the impact of the drinking and not having it completely denied.  Hope is every additional moment sober even if it is because gaming is the distraction.  Hope is the conversations that are had each morning where no alcohol has yet been consumed.  Hope is the glimpse of the real person I married once.
Hope is the family time we are able to enjoy because being deeply under the influence is not happening tonight.  Hope is knowing that there will likely not be any snide comments, barbed criticisms, and less chance for hurt feelings.
Hope is knowing God is here, whether my spouse is sober or not.  Hope is knowing someday, in His time, God will use this experience.  Hope is knowing that the kids get to see their parent in a different light than they have recently.
Hope is that God will continue to heal my heart, protect my family and soften my spouse's heart.
Hope is that Jesus was born and died for each of us including my spouse.  Now hoping that that message becomes evident.
Hope!