Blessings

I may feel sorry for myself from time to time.  I wish my spouse walked with me not only as my husband, but as a brother in Christ.  I wish that he didn't drink to the extent that he does.I wish that he didn't swear. I wish that he wanted to be more engaged in the kids lives and their activities. I wish that we had a better friendship like we once did. I wish that he would be more friendly and less judgemental. I wish I knew how much of his hatred, isolation and mean spirit was from the drinking and possible post traumatic stress and how much is from changes in him.

I can say that despite our struggles, I am thankful for a roof over my head, a  good job.  I am most thankful for two amazing children that have grown into fine young people.  I am truly appreciative of the wealth of friends that I have who have surrounded me with support, love, friendship and an ear to talk to.
Proverbs 17:17 A friend loves at all times,  and a brother (sister)is born for a time of adversity.
Each of my four friends have been their in my adversity this year and continue to be.  I am truly blessed.  There is no gift, no item, no money that could make the difference in my life that my friends have made in mine.  I continue to pray that God will soften my husband's heart and help me to be a witness to him. I pray that God will heal his heart, heal his addiction and mend the pain that it causes for me and my children. I pray that God also supports, strengthens and protects my family and my friends as we move into 2012. 
I pray that God blesses my friends and my children and that he would bless my husband with health.
Seeking Peace, Joy, Hope and Love today and next year.
God bless,