Struggling

It is a struggle to love hatred. It is a struggle to forgive drunken illogical arguments that are falsely critical and heartbreakingly spiteful and unwarranted.  It is a struggle to forgive when there is no acknowledgement of the behaviour when it is repeated and forgotten in a drunken stupor.  How do I challenge the behaviour when arguing with a drunk is hopeless and bringing it up the next day is pointless as there is no remembrance of the actions?

How do I love this? How do I forgive the same thing over and over?  My heart is beyond breaking and is hardening.  I need help finding forgiveness. I need help binding grace. I need wisdom in how to deal with things moving forward appropriately.

I fear that addressing the behaviour will only result in resentment and misunderstanding.

Revelations 21:4 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’[b] or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

Psalms 147:3 He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.