How do you balance what the world says with what your vows say?
How do you take one of the only things that we commit to before God any more. To love, to honour and obey, in sickness and in health against deserving to be happy.
I now that the alcoholism is a symptom of PTSD or something. If someone has cancer they go to the doctor and they get treatment. If someone gets Parkinsons, or MS or MD, they go and get diagnosed and treated. How long, when someone is living with alcoholism, can you expect to wait before they will go to get help? What has to be the trigger to make them seek a diagnosis or treatment.
If we are not happy together, today's world suggests we may be happy apart. A counsellor even suggested that it may be a matter of giving the ultimatum that it is the drinking or me.
He has to decide to get better, but he has to admit that he is sick first. It has been 9 years and he doesn't see it. How can this be so difficult?
I said I would never wait this long for the alcoholism to fester, but I have and I really don't know how much longer I can do this. Is it a matter of my mental health? Is it selfish of me to step out? How do I do that? What are the implications? Why do I worry about others more than myself?
I just don't know any more. Is happiness more important than working things out?
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