God has given me a very blessed life. I have somewhere to live. I have amazing kids. I have food when I need it and even when I don't. I have a job that challenges me and transportation to take me there. I have the opportunity to study and learn and grow. I have amazing friends who have supported me through some very dark times and given me shoulders to lean on. God has also shown me that things happen in His time.
I started the weekend disappointed. Disappointed with the same old bouquet of roses for our anniversary. Disappointed we didn't go away. Disappointed that the drinking continued. Disappointed we didn't go see a movie yesterday. Disappointed that things just didn't seem to be going the way I wanted them to at all lately.
Earlier this week, I left our church's Thanksgiving letter on the dinner table. It is from our new minister and I hoped that hubby might read it! Yesterday at breakfast, he did!! He even read the devotional on the back!!! Today, he came up stairs. He asked to iron his shirt. I was surprised. He said he was coming to church with us and he said I hadn't asked. It doesn't matter that I have in the past. He came to church today!!! God orchestrated a great Sunday to come to church!!!
Good grief! It was about things that hold us. Things that bind us. Debt (guilty), fashion and expectations of fashion such as control top pantyhose, girdles etc (guilty), poverty, emotional hurts (yup), physical suffering and addictions. Yes she said addictions! I couldn't believe it. God lead him to join us at church, today of all days? God lead the minister to speak quite directly about something I completely didn't expect. In addition, the minister never expected us to be there given that I thought we would be away this weekend! In fact, given we had not gone away, I had actually contemplated going to another church today until he said he was coming with us! Praying that the message registered and convicted him as much as it did me. Yes. Jesus came to free us from all of that, but we have to let Him. God loves us no matter what we have done, but we need to bring it to Him.
Praying for a new beginning that will allow healing, growth, forgiveness and love to expand.
Praying that I can find just a bit of the incredible forgiveness and love that God gives us. Praying that I can hold to the freeing power that He gives us and that my spouse desires the same.
I may not have liked the whole message today. I know that God was speaking to me as well as to him. I thank God for showing me that He is in control, regardless of everything else, he will look after me. Happy Thanksgiving!
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