It is challenging to believe it can be the same person. How can one thing have such an incredible impact on a person? To be a decent human being that I think I still love to being such a mean-spirited bully at night... Is it a combination with other things? Could there be prescriptions I am not aware of? It has happened three times. The drinking starts later in the day and the attitude becomes more critical and even explosive?
Why can't he see the impact is has. It is becoming more and more difficult to embrace the good, sober person as there is no memory of the horrible drunken behaviour by the key perpetrator? Will the return to the work routine correct this? Praying that things settle down in the new year. I do need to put my foot down if this continues. I cannot survive well if he chooses not to correct the lapse that has occurred.
It is a New Year with new beginnings, new hopes and new challenges. Praying that I can face them effectively and healthily as God would have me. Worried that I may not have the stamina to handle this for much longer, but am in a better frame of mind than I was this time last year.
So very thankful for amazing friends over the last year and truly appreciate what they have done for me.
I am blessed.
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