Why do I let the cold shoulder and guilt trips get to me? Why do I take them personally? I invited him to a movie that I wanted to see. He said no. I went to the movie and had supper. Now it is the sulking behaviour that is getting me down.
Why do I let this behaviour get under my skin? I do not understand why I am made to feel bad when I am the sober one? When I have remained patient for so long? When I have stayed here in all of this?
Perhaps I am choosing self-pity at the moment, but I really don't understand sometimes.
Why, after all this time, do I let it bother me? Why am I surprised by it? Why can't I just remember it is his choice and not mine on days like this?
Why am I taken aback that a problem is made out of a mole hill? Why can't I just let it go?
Lord, let me relinquish control to you.
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