I don't want to admit defeat

I don't want an ending. I don't want to call it quits. I know I am struggling and wonder how long I can do this.  I know that I need to count on God, but my heart hurts.  I don't want to live a lie.

I don't like to give up.  Is this because of a fear of failure or is this because there is a reason to walk away.  I need so much prayer and know I only need to ask for God's support.

It has been more than a year and only one counselling session?  I visit to the church because of the kids leading role in it in April.  When do I get what I asked for?

Love Kari Jobe's song, "Here"

"Here"

Come and rest here

Come and lay your burdens down

Come and rest here

There is refuge for you now

[Pre-Chorus:]

You'll find His peace

And know you're not alone anymore

He is near

You'll find His healing

You're heart isn't shattered anymore

He is here 

[Chorus:]

Breathe in

Breathe out

You will

You will find Him here

[Bridge:]

I will rest in You

[Outro:]

You will find Him

You will find Him here

You will find Him

You will find Him here