One Step Forward, two steps back...

Just when things seem to be going well, the drinking resurfaces?  Why is it necessary?  Why can't it just stop?  Why does it create such tension?  How can such negativity be ignored?  What can prevent it?  How does it create such a pull?  If the pain of it all is so evident, then why keep drinking?  It is really hard to understand sometimes.  How do I forgive something that just keeps on happening?  It is a challenge that I know I need His help with.  It is hard not to get discouraged by it.

There will be a day when all of this will pass.

Psalm 25 16-21.
Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.
¹⁷ Relieve the troubles of my heart
and free me from my anguish.
¹⁸ Look on my affliction and my distress
and take away all my sins.
¹⁹ See how numerous are my enemies
and how fiercely they hate me!

²⁰ Guard my life and rescue me;
do not let me be put to shame,
for I take refuge in you.
²¹ May integrity and uprightness protect me,
because my hope, Lord,^[c] is in you.

Please, give me a forgiving heart, Lord