How do you move from being someone who has tolerated inappropriate behaviour to drawing a line in the sand. How do you move from trying to ignore behaviour to putting your foot down.
Where do I draw on the confidence to do so if there is denial that there is a problem? How do I keep loving the good part and cutting off the bad? How do I step up to being the disciplinarian when I have allowed the poor behaviour to happen all along thinking ignoring it would avoid ruffled feathers.
Why am I so timid to do so? Why do I fear his words? Why do I find it intimidating? Why do I let him get under my skin? How can I tackle this with confidence, determination, wisdom and be serious about it?
How do I proceed without fearing reprisal, retaliation? I have been honest about everything else this year, why is this so difficult? Why is it running around in circles in my head? If there is never a sober moment? How do I find the right time? Is it going to ruin the long weekend?
I wish someone else would come in and set the expectations, hold him accountable and make him see. I at least know what has to be done, I have prayed for the strength and the courage and now I just need the right timing and discernment to tackle it.
Oh, how great are God's riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his ways! Romans 11:33 ESV
John 16:
19 Jesus saw that they wanted to ask him about this, so he said to them, “Are you asking one another what I meant when I said, ‘In a little while you will see me no more, and then after a little while you will see me’? 20 Very truly I tell you, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. 21 A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. 22 So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. 23 In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Very truly I tell you, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 24 Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.
God bless,
